Unpoppable!

Friday, July 1, 2011

You.

Filed under: Anti-Socialized,Pondering the Personal,Tickle Me Emo — jungzx @ 3:39 pm

You wake up, drag yourself out of bed, begrudgingly head to the shower, all while half asleep. Feeling closer to awake, you dry yourself off and you go back to your room. Sitting on the bed, wrapped up in a towel, you light a cigarette as you’re idly deciding what to wear.

You finish it up, forgetting. You light another cigarette, pretending you have a reason for stalling. You’re no longer thinking about what to wear. You are thinking of absolutely nothing and everything all at once.

And then, you light another.

And another.

And as you put out what you say will be the last cigarette and dump the butt in the ashtray,

Nothing. 

You sit there, knowing you have somewhere to be and things to do but you are unable to move, not wanting to think, not wanting to do anything, not wanting to fucking exist.

And you light another cigarette.

2 Comments »

  1. This phenomenon happens to me almost everyday as well, after getting off bed and plastering myself in front of the computer. It just feels weird that you are somewhat compelled to jump from one online portal to another, as if seeking reassurance, a surprise or something similar, but in truth, you aren’t really looking for anything in particular. Every purported last cigarette comes as an ultimate excuse to pursue the debacle. Heck, it’s happening right now as I type this.

    Comment by Anonymouse — Friday, July 1, 2011 @ 7:11 pm | Reply

  2. “Music only exists because pauses exist, and sentences only exist because the blank spaces exist.”

    This pretty much sums up what I want to say, Jung. I hug you! Don’t hate me for quoting Coelho. :))

    Comment by freul — Saturday, July 2, 2011 @ 4:15 am | Reply


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